You shouldn’t try to stop everything from happening. Sometimes you’re supposed to feel awkward. Sometimes you’re supposed to be vulnerable in front of people. Sometimes it’s necessary because it’s all part of you getting to the next part of yourself.
I was in the winter of my life- and the men I met along the road were my only summer. At night I fell sleep with vision of myself dancing and laughing and crying with them. Three year down the line of being on an endless world tour and memories of them were the only things that sustained me, and my only real happy times. I was a singer, not very popular one, who once has dreams of becoming a beautiful poet- but upon an unfortunate series of events saw those dreams dashed and divided like million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again- sparkling and broken. But I really didn’t mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it to know what true freedom is.
When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing, how I had been living- they asked me why. But there’s no use in talking to people who have a home, they have no idea what its like to seek safety in other people, for home to be wherever you lied you head.
I was always an unusual girl, my mother told me that I had a chameleon soul. No moral compass pointing me due north, no fixed personality. Just an inner indecisiviness that was as wide as wavering as the ocean. And if I said that I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying- because I was born to be the other woman. I belonged to no one- who belonged to everyone, who had nothing- who wanted everything with a fire for every experience and an obssesion for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about- and pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzlez and dizzied me.
Every night I used to pray that I’d find my people- and finally I did- on the open road. We have nothing to lose, nothing to gain, nothing we desired anymore- except to make our lives into a work of art.
LIVE FAST. DIE YOUNG. BE WILD. AND HAVE FUN.
I believe in the country America used to be. I belive in the person I want to become, I believe in the freedom of the open road. And my motto is the same as ever- *I believe in the kindness of strangers. And when I’m at war with myself- I Ride. I Just Ride.*
Who are you? Are you in touch with all your darkest fantasies?
Have you created a life for yourself where you’re free to experience them?
I Am Fucking Crazy. But I Am Free.
- Lana Del Rey
Yay my first tag post! Thanks kelsey!:)
1. If you had to live on one food for the rest of your life, what would I be?
Uhhhh pasta? Or cupcakes if I wouldn’t go into sugar overload and become a beached whale.
2. What song are you currently obsessed with?
THERE IS TOO MANY TO CHOOSE ONE! Let’s see… Don’t hate but shake it off by Taylor swift is pretty high up there. It’s just so catchy and makes me want to dance!
3. What was the best vacation you ever took and why?
When I went to South Carolina a couple summers back! We rented a house with my dads family and had to 4wheel drive it on the beach to get there. Plus there were wild horses and ponies that lived there that would frolic in the water and come up to our cars. It was amazing.
4. Do you prefer hot or cold weather?
I prefer when the weather is in the high 70s haha so I’ll go with hot
5. If you could be famous for one thing, what would it be?
If I could sing (which I can’t at all, ask anyone who knows me) I’d love to be a pop artist so I could make music videos and go on tour. But I’d want to be known for being one of those artist who can dance as well:)
6. Glitter or rhinestones?
Both! Because it depends on what I’m crafting. But if I had to pick if choose glitter cuz I feel like it usually looks classier.
7. If you had the chance to study abroad, where would you go and what would you study?
Italy and I’d study hospitality management, duh. I’d love to go there to study wine and their food.
8. Is there a movie you know every word to?
Pitch perfect. My house use to watch it 3 times a day for basically a year haha
9. Is there one decision in your life that you truly regret making?
Nope! I feel like all my decisions have lead me to where I am today and has shaped me into the person I am today and I am very happy were I am in life right now.
10. If you could change your name, what would you make it?
I like my name and I feel like it fits. I can’t imagine going by anything else. I don’t even have nicknames.
11. What’s one thing you wish will come true by the end of the year?
I want Kyle to buy me a puppy so bad, but I doubt that’ll happen since my roommate would kill me. I’d also really like to finally get my tattoo I want!